Sorrow lies all where i see...

The title basically says it all...
well, its been quite some time since my last post, so here i am with a new one..
life's been pretty ok so far. 20th april (i've book marked this day).I had a great time. Honestly it was one of the most memorable moments so far.. We guys met up at sun's place and had a helluva time. We played,cooked,hogged,did naughty but cute stuff n as it was all over i came to realise that life has taken us all into new directions where there will be no-one to guide us, no-one to hold us when we fall.. it is a new and strange world..
So as i lay on my bed last night, all such thoughts just over - shadowed my mind. Apparently this is one of the reasons for this post.. ( the other reason for my this state is known to a few of u..) At this point of time, i just wish i had some super natural powers by which i could hold back to those innocent moments that have gone by... But i hate to accept the fact that we all have GROWN UP.. I just wish i could go back to those childhood days where pranks,smiles,fun,care towards one another,secret crushes,homework's were the only things in our lives..
No tensions, No worries, No problems, No break-ups, No relations, NO SERIOUS likings towards one -another.... it was so much better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But now life seems so difficult,so different,so not like how i want it to be!!
Loneliness,sadness,sorrow are left with me....
Here are just a few lines that completely express my thoughts at this point of time..

ALL I CRAVE FOR...

All i crave for is peace of mind...

All i crave for is happiness all around...

Time has taken me into a stange phase of life,

where sadness is in profusion,

but love is all what lacks...

All i crave for is to meet myself the way i used to be...

All i crave for is to live life like an illusion...

These lines have said it all.... thats it...

12th.... u better get updated now!!!!

This is the third freakin time im updating this post... its jinxed i guess...
neways hurray!!! as the title says it all... its about the 12th which was a wednesday... actually me n sun were the one's who actually planned it.. but she couldnt make it due to some reasons... i completely understand sun...

newayz we headed towards pizza hut in lamcy where we had dis yummy meal which included veg n fajita pizza n garlic bread n free diet coke.. haha.. remember guyz??... then we signed aaf's shirt.. she left for india on friday... *whines*.. i missssssssssss u aafuuuuuuuu......

Than we headed towards my place where we decked up for going to the lodge, had no clue of wht lodge had in store for us... we weren't able 2 enter due to the id shitttt n da worst part was nikhil sent a female who didnt behave decently wid me (get ma point???) to get me in... she was freaky n sick n a 'les' i guess ... eyuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ...... *soooo pissin off*......
den came back home had noodles n yum yum cake, was mindfucked but da nite compensated it & time healed it all.. then v guys spoke bout every anonymous shit on the face of this freakin earth... we were wide awake till 7 den slept off n woke up at noon.... further details on meenal's blog.. im lazy already....lol

but i had a heck of a time... all owes 2 meenu n jan... i luvvvvvvvvvvvv uuuuuuuu...lapy..... but i missed ma mates like crazyyyyyyyy.... aafu for her funny acts n pj's..i luv u aafu..{come back aafu.. i miss u already},maqy 4 her hugs,moni as she's so comforting n reminds me of my daadi,da bur dubai gang (neelu,umme n maniiiiiiiiii)i missed u allllllllllll...... saruuuu shit i missed my hump.... n da dip... n u obviously....i luvvvv yaaaaa, n finally my SUN babieeee i missssssssssssssssssssed u like tooooo much, wish u all could make it *sad*....... mwah *huggies n kissies* 2 everyone.....
if i missed out on anyone im sorie... n i luv u also.... mwah!!!!

ok thats it!!! lot of efforts gone in for this post so be considerate n comment!!! aint be lazy like ME....

A weird moment ... feel closer to God...

well, rite now im confused why am i up wid this kinda title... mebe coz i am experiencing a weird moment.. sumtin tht i can percieve but fail 2 xplain...
I feel im on a point where if i move forward il be hurt..if i tend to go back il be hurt..
the people around me i dont seem to trust ... everyone seems so fake...
sumtimes life is no less than a dream.. sumtimes its worse than hell... sumtimes my friends are the best things ever happened to me... sumtimes its just the opposite... n now i seem to believe the lines in my english text book which said.. "everything is void,frail and delusive as a mirage".. so i have learnt to be my own best friend... i have learnt not be dependant on anyone for anything ... i have learnt that in this bad world no-one is there for any-one ....

yipiii i got a blog *smiles*

hmphhhh... finally i gotta blog... *confused*
dun really fancy it cus im so not into the blogging n stuff... but it isn't that bad.. infact its a gud time pass so its all gud... LOLZ!!
neways to kick start wid (addressing to people who dunno me) im jyoti mm 17 yrs .. jus done wid school xcept 4 the arabic shit... really bored .... bored.... n bored!!!!

well, im really sleepy right now coz im a total sleep-a-holic(sana will agree wit me on dat .. right sun ?????.. lolss) so jus wana go hit the bed....
if u've visited my blog than ur blessed wid sheer gud luck n if u've posted a comment than an even better luck.. n if u've not den u got no luck !!!!!!!!!
so better be gud wid me.. LOLS!!
jo...